You're No Better
by Andrew Joseph White
Andrew Joseph White's fourth YA horror novel, You're No Better, is as utterly riveting and shocking as his previous titles for teens (Hell Followed with Us; The Spirit Bares Its Teeth; Compound Fracture). But You're No Better, about protagonist Morgan Slaughter, an autistic transgender teen determined to develop an identity separate from his convicted serial killer father, may be White's most commanding work yet. Through skillful prose, he develops a complicated, intricate plot while immediately establishing Morgan's candid, unapologetic voice--one of immense vulnerability that masquerades as defiance.
When Morgan was 10, he saw his dad, Graham Nathaniel Slaughter, murder his 51st female victim. Morgan reported the crime and testified at his father's trial. Unsurprisingly, Morgan is tortured by this past: "It's horrible... living with this written into your muscle memory and carved into your neurons."
You're No Better begins with a documentary crew invading Morgan's life, with their morbid interest in Slaughter's murder of "fifty-one girls over twenty-one years." The crew conducts in-depth interviews with Morgan's mother, Bellamy, and with Morgan, which include notes like: "Morgan Slaughter is a seventeen-year-old girl with long red hair wearing a simple black dress. While she's conventionally pretty and mature for her age, there is an unnerving blankness to her expression, and she sits extremely still, like a predator." In exchange for Morgan's participation in the project, his transphobic mother has agreed to hand over Morgan's half-million-dollar trust fund when he turns 18, rather than 25, but he'll have to stay closeted until then. Morgan knows that the trust fund means he will eventually be able to escape Bellamy's abuse and transition on his own terms, so he dons the appropriate facades: a "costume" of femininity and a "veil of neurotypicality."
Although former therapists have characterized him with "a proven history of impulsive violence," Morgan resolves to confirm once and for all that he's not like his father by uncovering the still-unknown identity of Slaughter's final victim. He reluctantly teams up with a classmate, Felicity, when she threatens to reveal Slaughter and Morgan's cataclysmic secret: Morgan wasn't just a witness but a forced accomplice. Morgan has no idea how Felicity knows that Slaughter horrifically groomed Morgan to be an accessory to Slaughter's grisly crimes. For most of Morgan's life, his parents molded him for their own selfish gain and now that Slaughter has been jailed, Bellamy exploits Morgan for social media clout.
With his goal in mind and Felicity's threat looming, Morgan manipulates others to obtain evidence about the victim. First, he steals photos from his friend Alyssa's house. Morgan resents Alyssa for being able to transition and "be okay," and he interprets her repeated concerns about his well-being as pity. Most importantly, her Washington, D.C., police chief father, "a sad, pathetic son of a bitch who destroyed his marriage to (unsuccessfully) chase" Slaughter, still hoards documentation from the crime scenes. Later, Morgan intentionally builds a flirtatious relationship with Daniel--a "bright-eyed, pliable" film student working with the production team--to obtain a key card allowing access to Slaughter's crime scene: a waterfront loft-turned-torture chamber that has sat "unchanged. Unchanging. For years."
Morgan sees his investigation and manipulations as vehicles to regain power--from his parents, documentarians, influencers--and control his own story. He feels trapped and stripped of agency and selfhood, which is disturbingly analogous to how he grew up in his father's kill room. Slaughter has shaped nearly every facet of his son: "I'll never know what I would have been without him." Morgan perceives bids for connection as mechanisms to exploit him, just as his father gained his victims' trust and then heinously abused it.
Morgan's repeated self-sabotage and his matter-of-fact narration detailing devastating memories are disturbing and engrossing. Graphic details of the crimes unfurl through multiple sources: White infuses Morgan's sporadic recall with information from autopsy reports, social media speculations, and interviews with Morgan and Bellamy. White leaves the full image, however, to readers to piece together. He never glories in the pain, sadism, or gore--instead, he gives readers just enough to understand the horror in a way they are individually capable of comprehending.
Morgan's gender identity is also on display, and its nuance illuminates a reality for trans folks who must suppress parts of themselves for their own safety: "Gender gets weird when you're a closeted trans boy, but also feminine, but also coerced into girlhood by a bitch of a mother." Knowing he's trans adds layers of terror to Morgan's acceptance of his identity. When he starts taking testosterone, the fear of looking in the mirror and seeing his father staring back haunts him: "I'll still paint my nails so I don't see the blood, but I'll be a man, as long as I'm not a man like him."
Morgan escapes physically and emotionally bloodied and bruised from violent events at the story's conclusion, but his gradual growth over the course of the novel leaves him more willing to accept offers of support. While Morgan's experience as the child of a serial killer is unusual, he is also undeniably a teenager: he's oppositional and misunderstood, yet desperate to be seen and loved. The fallible, wholly authentic protagonist is a constant in White's YA novels, as is the idea that, though the story is complete, the character still has a whole life of growth ahead of them. Here, White takes the relatable, closeted, and abused Morgan and closes with the idea that things "might even get kind of good eventually." You're No Better brilliantly uses extremes to highlight and honor the intricacies and complicated intersections of adolescent and neurodivergent trans experiences, creating a novel that can speak to a multitude of teens. --Kieran Slattery








