This memoir is like nothing else you've ever read. Blaze Ginsberg, age 22, permits us to visit the inner workings of his brain, from his freshman year of high school in 2002 through the spring of 2008, when he receives his editor's comments on an early draft of this book. But don't expect the usual personal narrative along a chronological timeline. For Blaze, a "high-functioning autistic," as he calls himself, certain details stand out above others, and he often organizes his memories around a theme. A special someone showing up to class can make his day; a glitch in his routine can ruin it. Sound familiar? Blaze shows us how we're all more alike than different. He constructs his recollections as "episodes" on a TV show; sometimes they occur on consecutive days, sometimes he skips entire weeks. He gives each episode a title, date, summary, notes, quotes, trivia, "goofs" and a soundtrack listing (recurring singers/groups include Hilary Duff--on whom he develops a crush--James Taylor, Coldplay, Marvin Gaye, Alanis Morissette, David Bowie, the Eagles, Stevie Wonder and Anita Baker), with a specific song highlighted, plus the album (and year) on which it appeared. A "Thanksgiving Special" appears as a bookend to each year; in it, Blaze often makes comparisons to previous Thanksgivings, and always recaps the "major events" of that year. His sense of humor permeates his reflections, as do bouts of anger or sadness.
Blaze gives readers a crystal-clear picture of where his thoughts take him. For instance, after the last episode of his series "My Freshman Year of High School 2 (2003)," he includes a "Post-season Special: Flashback," dated March 1, 2007, in which he describes watching The Graduate during his college film class and the precise scene that sparks his memories of 2003. He also enjoys making lists and provides a running inventory of what's important to him (e.g., for "Games 1: Episode 1," a series in which he attends his high school's softball games, he writes, "This is the only episode in which Long, the driver, drove bus number 4221. Number 4221 is a 1984 Blue Bird bus and was retired in the summer of 2004"). With his large and loving extended family, Blaze establishes traditions like the "Saturday groove" with the women of his clan (his mother, his Nana, his aunts) or outings with his uncle Bo to the hot tub, sauna and pool (the "Jewish Triathlon," as they call it). The Blaze who emerges from these details is an intelligent young man longing for someone to love and struggling to make sense of his world. "Part of what happens when I am so tired is that I start to feel depression around me," Blaze writes after a long day with classmates at Disneyland. "Being up so late, wandering around, and arguing with my friends messes up my mind and makes me want to repeat stress and problems that I had in the past, which is crazy because why would anyone want to repeat stress and problems?" His ability to articulate his thought process helps us reflect on how nonlinear the mind is and how much information we are constantly sifting through. In this book, Blaze gives readers and writers of all ages an innovative approach to memoir (imagine how fresh "My Summer Vacation" pieces could be!) and, for those who live or work with students with diverse learning strategies, he gives us a privileged passport to a dynamic and complex inner life.--Jennifer M. Brown
[Editor's note: The author's mother, Debra Ginsberg (Raising Blaze), reviews for Shelf Awareness.]